My past

For this first post I'd like to talk with you about where I begin and in the next post I'll share with you how I start a new way of thinking and living.

Actually, my father has always been depressed and alcoholic since I remember.

But I didn't see anything before my 13 years old because my mother succeed to hide it to me and my little sister. After 15 years of marriage she was so upset so naturally she asks to divorce.

However, they failed to divorce during 8 (fucking) years. You know the usual pattern, nobody wants to agree and makes things easier. My mother wanted to sell all their properties and share the money, my father didn't wanted to. So during 8 long years they were just fought each other, loosing lot of money because of the lawyers.

I'll pass the details of this period where I had to help my father always go ahead and not give up, even he was the worst asshole ever because of his depression and alcoholism (moreover I was alone with him because my sister didn't wanted to see him anymore and he lost almost all of his friends).

Short, all of it has happened when I was in middle school and high school and I still succeed to pass my scientific baccalaureate with mention. I pass quickly on my 3 years after high school where I tried the first year of medicine, one of a preparatory class to become physiotherapist and 2 months in the university of sport. I tried all of this because I didn't know what to do and my family told me that I would be a great physiotherapist because I massaged well. And of course I didn't ask myself If I really wanted this and of course I failed all of these studies.

During these 3 years I didn't wanted to stay with my family so I chose different place for each studies (I'm from a city near Marseille in the south of France so I went to Poitiers, Montpellier and Lyon).

Ok, so now in my story we are at the beginning of the last year (2017). During this years I just tried to earn some money doing temporary employment. In the same time, I was looking for what I kind of job I really want. I'll also pass on the problems I had with my mother and the 1 or 2 months where I was living in friend's house.

The really good things begin to come during this days because I had no choice, I had to find something to do and go ahead. I finally found an association in Marseille named Eurasienet which help people under 25 years old to do a civic service in international country. (For the people who don't know what the civic service is, it's a kind of volunteering during 3, 6 or 9 months in France or others country).

So I applied for a 9 month mission in Cambodia and I was lucky enough to be selected.

Now I'm in Cambodia since 6 months and lot of things have changed. But I'll talk about it in the next post because this one just becomes very too long ! I didn't tell you everything but I'll come back to some things. It's just for you to know where I came from because I think with all I lived until now I learned lot of things that I can share about how to handle the difficulties of our lives.

In advance, sorry for the mistake I can do in my sentences. I wanted to wrote in French but the only computer I can use here in Cambodia is a QWERTY without any accent so I'll try to do my best and improve my English !

Thanks for reading, I hope you'll share your story with me and like that we'll see the fulfillment of everyone.

Namaste.

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